Good except

I'm not doing too badly lately. Not bad at all except for wanting one thing. And the fact that I want it in the first place scares me. Why would anyone want it? :'(

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deleted_user
deleted_user

I give up what is it?
deleted_user
deleted_user

I\'m not very good at riddles either. Want what?
fluterify
fluterify

As horrible as it sounds to be hit again. I don\'t need the verbal abuse it\'s just the physical I crave.
imemmarose
imemmarose

sorry kiddo--once something like that has happened, it can cause a lot of ambivalence. very confusing. probably there\'s a longing for attachment and connection, and the way you\'v ehad it with this peron that you care about, even though they\'ve hurt you, has been through abuse. how do you stay connected any other way? without another way, you are left feeling alone...abuse feels better than that. you do NOT deserve the abuse little one, and the other kinds of connection can come to satisfy as you heal. i\'m sorry it\'s so hard. em
deleted_user
deleted_user

No, Stephanie, remember, you want to be a nurse and help people. You can\'t crave destructive behavior and want to help others. The two don\'t mix honey. Let\'s focus on the nursing. I\'m so glad your feeling better. Just keep focused, you can get through it, we are here for you.. Hugs, Danette
deleted_user
deleted_user

Maybe you are craving physical attention such as a hug and if you are not receiving the physical connection everyone craves, I guess any type is acceptable. That\'s my concept, anyway. I hope you feel happier real soon. Hugs, Barb