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Still feeling ok. Not even upset that I have to see my dad.

A little stronger today. Still having thoughts but I know god is on my side and he wont let me die. Feel more like I'm back climbing this mountian of life than falling down it.

How much longer can I hold on? I want to let go for good. :'(

I'm going to OD. I've already cut. What does life matter. :'(

Really I'm fine I promise. It doesn't matter that I want to kill myself. Not like anyone cares. I want to cut, I want to starve, I'm going to die soon I hope.

I'm shakingI'm so scaredI don't want to live anymoreI don't deserve toI am all aloneNoone really knowsNoone can really tellMy life is a lieI want to dieI don't want to sinI just don't knoe or care

I don't want to be this way any more. :'( >:(

I don't know I've had 2 good day and yet I still feel sad. :?

Yay, for the first time in about a year I've actually been happy. :)

I want to kill myself but I do not want to sin and end up going to hell. :'( Don't know what to do. :(

How do I feel? I feel left, lonley, unloved, unwanted, unprotected, sed terrified,insane, fat, ugly, stupid, fedup. Along with a host of other unknows. :'(

They take a needleStick it in my armDraw up the bloodLeve it in to make me wellThe drugs they giveRight dosages stillBut this is not a hospitalThis is my roomI am the nurseAnd a kife my needleMy drug...

I'm fine right now but I want to die and scarier still I want to be suicidal. Why? I don't get it and it terrifies me. I don't know what to do? I feel scared and unloved.

Feeling sad :'(. My mom's sick and not being nice at all. Plus I was already feeling bad cause I was thinking about what bullies had told me and believing them. But at the same time I was thinking...

I don't know I feel empty. Not to mention dirty, ugly and fat. :( Oh, not to mention useless not like I've ever helped anyone. Could I just die?