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They take a needleStick it in my armDraw up the bloodLeve it in to make me wellThe drugs they giveRight dosages stillBut this is not a hospitalThis is my roomI am the nurseAnd a kife my needleMy drug...

I'm fine right now but I want to die and scarier still I want to be suicidal. Why? I don't get it and it terrifies me. I don't know what to do? I feel scared and unloved.

Feeling sad :'(. My mom's sick and not being nice at all. Plus I was already feeling bad cause I was thinking about what bullies had told me and believing them. But at the same time I was thinking...

I don't know I feel empty. Not to mention dirty, ugly and fat. :( Oh, not to mention useless not like I've ever helped anyone. Could I just die?

Strength, where does it come from. Where does it go? Why have I lost most of mine? How do I get it back? I feel weak, pointless and some how abandoned.

I want to die don't know or care how but I want to but at the same time I don't want to leave you guys behind.

I am so empty and broken just nothing. I'm completly worthless. Why do you guys even care? Why do I care?

I just do not want to live any more. Do I have to? I dought it but can anyone let me go?

I hurt, this I know but in a way I can't feel it. No, thats not right I feel it plenty but I would much rather it be physical than emotional. I've already tried twice in less than a year could I at...

Don't know where don't know when or how but I feel like I am going to do it. Make the third time be a very uncharming charmed. All I want it to be is painful cause thats all I deserve.

I feel like nothing. Like I can't do anything deffinatly nothing right. And all I really want to do is sleep and do physical harm to my self. :(

:'( How long will I last this time?

I just don't know. I have no idea any more, do I really care for life any more? I have no more idea. I might want to...

If I could just go to sleep for at least 24 hours I would I don't really feel like living, not necessarily dieing but not living either. I've stopped eating 2 meals a day so now I normally get 2...

I feel like a shell. On the inside this war of the worlds (life or death) is going on but I in no way have any part in the out come. In a way I am glad because I feel so weak right mow even a tiny...