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I think I had an "aha" moment yesterday.  I locked myself out of the house by accident yesterday morning and so I phoned my mother (who lives close to me) to see if she might be able to run me over...

Well, it's been two weeks since I told the guy I was seeing that I deserved more than his crumbs and I know I should feel proud of myself for taking a stand and I'm not sorry that I broke it off but...

I think I am really seeing my patterns and I'm not sure whether to take a break from men or practice on them.... Last night a man who I used to date called me.  I still keep in touch with him after...

I feel like a complete traitor!  I haven't been on her for OVER six months and here I am about to ask for advice and support :(There is good news and there is bad news.Good news - I did it!  I went...

Day 91 of 365 - Man BreakIt's funny when you are on vacation and have no schedule sometimes you get lost as to what to do next with all this free time.  I like having a plan.  Without one I wander...

Day 88 of 365 - Man BreakSo today feels a lot better.  First, even though I was feeling down I made myself do things.  I worked out and went to the library with my son and got some banking done. ...

Day 86 of 365 - Man BreakHow can you have a family and so-called friends and still feel all alone in the world.If I could go to an island sans any technology or any way for people to find me (except...

Day 84 of 365 - Man Break (Seriously it's been THIS long)Day 1 of vacation!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!The count down is on until my summer vacation.  Two weeks of pure heaven away from work.  I promised...

otNTONDay 66 of 365 - Man BreakIt's been two weeks since I wrote a journal entry.  I have been super stressed.  I ended up in the hospital last Tuesday with heart palpitations.  The tests turned...

Day 52 of 365 - Man Break Now that I don’t spend endless hours obsessing about the latest man there seems to be a lot of time on my hands and it makes me pretty antsy.  I have TONS to do and TONS...

Day 46 of 365 - Man BreakI went to counseling today and told my counselor that I had been feeling depressed and anxious lately.  Seems to be a stress reaction since it is the end of the year crunch...

Day 41 of 365 - Man Break Today I just can't put my finger on what's wrong with me.  I have been so down lately.  I guess not completely down just dissatisfied.  Everyone seems to be pissing me...

Day 38 of 365 - Man Break It was a long weekend in Canada – Victoria Day so I haven’t been on much.  Enjoying the beautiful weather!  It is finally hot here and by the looks of things might be...

Day 31 of 365 - Man BreakWe talked a bit in counseling about the fact that I was adopted.  My counselor wanted to know a little about it.  I told him I was adopted at three months old and found my...

Day 30 of 365 - Man Break Having so much time to focus on myself is a different experience.  Usually I was so busy dealing with drama that I had no insight about myself.  On thing that has come up...