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Day 52 of 365 - Man Break Now that I don’t spend endless hours obsessing about the latest man there seems to be a lot of time on my hands and it makes me pretty antsy.  I have TONS to do and TONS...

Day 46 of 365 - Man BreakI went to counseling today and told my counselor that I had been feeling depressed and anxious lately.  Seems to be a stress reaction since it is the end of the year crunch...

Day 41 of 365 - Man Break Today I just can't put my finger on what's wrong with me.  I have been so down lately.  I guess not completely down just dissatisfied.  Everyone seems to be pissing me...

Day 38 of 365 - Man Break It was a long weekend in Canada – Victoria Day so I haven’t been on much.  Enjoying the beautiful weather!  It is finally hot here and by the looks of things might be...

Day 31 of 365 - Man BreakWe talked a bit in counseling about the fact that I was adopted.  My counselor wanted to know a little about it.  I told him I was adopted at three months old and found my...

Day 30 of 365 - Man Break Having so much time to focus on myself is a different experience.  Usually I was so busy dealing with drama that I had no insight about myself.  On thing that has come up...

Day 24 - 25 of 365 - Man BreakLast night a group of us went out for drinks for the birthday of a friend.    Most of the girls there were either married or in serious long-term relationships.  ...

Day 19 - 23 of 365 - Man BreakGot back from a weekend dance comp last night.  Still tired but we had lots of fun.  It was so nice to spend two nights in a hotel with my kids and just relax and...

Day 18 0f 365 - Man Break Just a quick note that I am doing okay.  Busy packing for a trip this weekend with my kids so I don't have a lot of time for self-reflection but I am noticing how much my...

Day 16 - 17 of 365 - Man BreakTwo very stressful days.  I went to my first counseling appointment which was good.  The things I have decided to focus on are healing from abuse, my relationship with...

Day 14 - 16 of 365 - Man BreakThe weekends are better for me than the work week.  I just get enough down time to breathe. Sometimes during the week it is such a whirlwhind of activity it is...

Day 13 of 365 - Man BreakI'm exhausted today.  It just seems I'm always running around doing things for the kids and working.  I never seem to have any time to myself.  My son was giving me grief...

Day 12 of 365 - Man BreakI"ve been doing a lot of reading and one area I need a lot of work on is standing up for myself.  I just can't.  I'd rather endure countless hardships then tell anyone that...

Day 11 0f 365 - Man BreakThis breaking the patterns thing is like an onion.  Each time you peel off one layer there's another one underneath.  And a list of new books to read.  It gets frustrating...

Day 8 – 10 of 365 – Man Break One of the things that many books talk about with being in narcissistic and abusive relationships is about boundaries.  I have been reading the book “The Nice...