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- I knew my mood was gonna take a nose dive from the happy content mode I was in this morning. well today when I got home I burst into tears because I had an imaginary screaming match in the car. My mind decided to wander and say, " what would you...
- I know for a fact I coudlnt sleep till almost 2 am and I had to be up at 5.....why am I not tired? I'm not even stressing that bad this morning, it feels like its all melting away as I get ready for work. Now I'm terrified its all gonna come...
- My heart is hurting horribly and my mind keeps wanting to wander onto happy memories of my ex. I've tried meditating but something must be off with my chakras (if you believe in that sort of thing) or just the chemicals in my head. I cant convince...
- Its been so long since I went for a walk in the rain, it didnt last long but I got to see the silver light of the sun come out when the rain let up. It reminded me that theres always a bit of happiness waiting to come out when you dont expect it. I...
- i was doing so well this weekend but then I thought I saw my ex in a crowd of people and it messed with my head and heart in a painful way. I wanted to run up and hug him and say hello but that made me hurt more. I'm trying so hard to just push all...
- this weekend I'm out with friends at an anime convention after a horrible break up and everyone was a bit happy my ex couldnt make it because we all know he would start drama. I was feeling good the first two days, beating people up at foam fighting...
- I just finished talking to a friend about what happened to me this past week and she agrees. The weekend I was supposed to see other friends and have a girl's night I ended up going to my boyfriends because he needed me there to lean on me. We made...
- to start, I've had a relationship for a few months now which is long distance, we live two hours from each other. From the begining it has been a rocky situation where my boyfriend had trouble just listening to me when I vented and it often ended in...
- jesus my heart is twising so baddly. Today has been rough, constantly on the edge of panic attacks and wanting to give up. I've actually had a hankering for a cigarette which I havent had in years. I quit smoking 6 years ago but now that my body has...
- I wanted to share some music that helps me for just a few minutes in the morning to use my imagination and push away all of my pain.https://youtu.be/lPoWBX4MnWc?list=PL4EEDCCD59EDD6894
- I cant calm down, my body wont stop shaking and I'm crying uncontrolably. I've tried singing disney songs and breathing exercises but the pain is intense right now. All I can think about is wanting someoen here with me to hold me, kiss me on the...
- i'm doneI am so sick of my boyfriend getting mad at me for no good reason. I am so tired of him making me feel like its always my fault the fights start and I cant say anything or tell him how I'm feeling after he claims he'll be there for me and...
- I've been trying to stay positve this whole damn day but no luck, I was hoping to go to the candle store to do some aromatherapy shopping but that got cancled because I woke up late thanks to taking nyquil again to help me sleep. I ran late for...
- to start, my boyfriend and I have decided to date and get to know each other better but then a few days ago I was talking to him about a convention we are gonna be attending in a few days to get a time scheduale together when he suddenly said I was...
- Last night I had to resort to using Nyquil to knock me out and skip all the panic attacks. I havent had to do that in months and I was so proud of myself for not going back to it when things got tough but lately, it feels as though I havent slept...