I knew my mood was gonna take a nose dive from the happy content mode I was in this morning.
well today when I got home I burst into tears because I had an imaginary screaming match in the car. My mind decided to wander and say, " what would you do if your ex decided to try and get back with you in the future?"
I just lost it, I started screaming and crying and listing off all the hell he put me through and I deserve so much better. I deserve someone who keeps their promises when they say they want to and will stay by me no matter how tough things get. I'm still shaking......god I'm an oddball.
i just don't see how any of this can ever get any better.It still all has me in its sharp talons of memory of trying to forget.How long do i have to sit and process?i don't want to "sit with the feelings".i have been trying to do that for years.i guess i am not working hard enough.i feel so desperate.
Hey everyone. I haven't been on here much lately since my father died and everything with the pandemic. I want to feel like I can contribute words that will give comfort to others but I just don't feel like I have any right now. But I got to get all this out. So this might be a long post. Thanks in advance if you read part or all of it.A friend of mine turned out not to be such a great friend...