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- I've gone from missing my ex to wanting to knock his teeth out. Letting go of anger has never been my stong suit but I'm trying my best. I tell myself everyday that I deserve far better and that he's the one who gave up when things got tough. I wish...
- I was doodling in a notebook with a cruddy pen. Just drawing some tattoo designs like I used back in high school and they turned out great.....and I felt horrible. I used to love drawing designs of tattoos when friends would ask. I even wanted to...
- Dont get me wrong, im thankful that I have people to talk to about my issues of late. But some days I feel as though....I'm not really working on myself the way I should. I mean since I've been opening up to people and talking nearly everyday about...
- this year has been aweful for not only me but for most people in the new freinds group I've made. I suppose fate just decided to really break the hearts of all these people and mess with them financially. Feels odd knowing I was really just an...
- I once had a four year rleationship with a guy named David and It was a bit rocky, a bit crazy but all around everything healthy for me and I was so happy. Then the day came we started talking about marriage and the future and I got scared. He had a...
- I've always forgiven people easily, mostly so that I could keep moving forward with my life. And after the breakup I had, I was hoping that forgiving him would be enough but it hasnt. I have no romantic feelings for him but a part of me still wants...
- my friends and I were in a skype call when I suddenly remembered I needed to ask my ex about my painting I had given him a long time ago and about some concert tickets. I have had to ask my friend kendra to be the messenger because he still refuses...
- I called my ex today and left a few messages asking for my painting back and told him I forgave him for what he did to me but that doesnt mean I accept his behavior. I said I want him to be happy and find someone in the future but he needs to at...
- last night I spent time drinking and watching a terrible horror movie with a friend. I didnt get drunk but I did start to feel a little woozy so at the end of the movie and all of our making fun of it's cheesy acting and laughing together he drove...
- my panic attacks just jumped on me this morning. I had memories come flooding back of the happy moments with my ex and my friends who moved away.I've been sleeping with my stuffed animals just to have someone to hold at night and listening to gentle...
- my friends and I were just chatting normally when they suddenly mentioned my ex. He's apparently doing really well, got a promotion, been eating and sleeping just fine and he's doing great.My heart dropped right out of my chest at the mention of his...
- even though my now ex and I havent spoken in weeks, its still hurts to hear from our friends group that he still talks to them about me. And it worries me, because he promised me that he would tell me the second he got a new girlfriend or finally...
- So I recently found out I've been doing so well managing my sadness. Talking more about my feelings and using coping methods that alot of you suggested :). But now I've been feeling bitterness, some hate and mostly annoyance towards myself, my ex...
- I think I've finally made it through the first rough patch. its been getting easier. I dont feel as hopeless these past few mornings and i've been distracting myself more at work and school.. I've started working out more and I've spoken to friends...
- today is my birthday, I was supposed to spend the whole day with my long distance boyfriend but all those plans for not only today but the future are gone. It hit me yesterday when I agreed to take an extra shift at work, " I dont have any friends...