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- I recently got reinstated to my old college so I can finish up my credits and graduate within the next two years. I'm not gonna lie, I'm scared. My anxiety with large groups of people still makes me freeze up but I've gotten better over the years....
- It looks like I wont be able to go back to college till either summer or fall semester because my teachers have yet to get back to me about posting my grades so I can send my transcripts to the college I want! This just means I'm gonna have to wait,...
- Over the past year I've been really thinking on what I want to do with my life, not what my parents want of me for a change. But it's hard. I was raised to believe that tattoos are a sign that you dont like things about yourself so you use them to...
- Why cant I be like my ex and move on quickly, forget about all the promises I made and the few happy moments? Why cant I shut off my emotions and move on to another person.....almost like a breakup never happened? Why cant I be like my other friends...
- I spent time outside in the cold air and ran with the dog. I worked on my tattoo doodles and meditated in the dark while in the shower for about 20 minutes. I think I'm getting better, yeah I still think about my ex gently now and again but I've...
- After a long and heartbreaking session with my therapist we were able to come to the conclusion that I have atelophobia. Which means I have the fear of not being good enough or imperfection. Atelophobia is classified as an anxiety disorder that...
- This is day one of me disapearing for a while,staying off social media and only contacting people for emergencies only. Of course I'm still staying in contact with my therapist, thats a given. I thankfully have a few days off from work and so I...
- I've decided to cut myself off from all social media and contacting any of my friends (unless theres an emergency) for a while. I need to know if I can be alone and still be ok. I used to love being alone for days on end just being me......after all...
- while hanging out with my ex and having him drive me home, I had to sit and listen to him go on and on and on about this new girl he believes he's so in love with but he started showing a......darker side. He was hoping that he did get her pregnant...
- I went over to my ex's house to talk and go see a concert with him and we talked for a while. He believes he's found "the one".....and all I could do was smile.I have never seen him so happy and glow so much when he talks about her. Of course it...
- My ex called me the other day breaking his two month silence and said he's finally ready to talk. It hit me really hard to hear his voice but I still talked to him over the phone and discussed why we broke up. This is what I had wanted from the...
- my ex just pulled a stupid stunt. Once again he asked a friend to deliever a message to me asking for the $3000 he gave me in order to move back home and take care of some bills about a year ago. When I told him back then it was too much to be a...
- I've always hung out with boys more than girls so naturally its became habit for me to gravitate towards guys during social gatherings because I dont really know how to talk to girls. I never realized this could end up being a huge problem when...
- I still feel angry some days. I cant get my ex's voice out of my head. All the times he would tell me that I was just needy, trying to start fights, ruin his day or try to hint at wanting to break up. When all I wanted to do was open up to him with...
- Tonight is supposed to be my friends early halloween party and for weeks i had been told my ex couldnt make it. Now as of last night when my friend picked me up I find out he just might make it with his new girlfriend. I'm not suprised in the...