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made a break through

imiru
imiru

After a long and heartbreaking session with my therapist we were able to come to the conclusion that I have atelophobia. Which means I have the fear of not being good enough or imperfection. Atelophobia is classified as an anxiety disorder that can affect relationships and makes the afflicted person feel like everything they do is wrong. 


I got this way from past expierences with my dad who has PTSD and used to hit and scream at me and my siblings for just about everything that would set him off. I had learned to live so cautiously that even now into my adult life I still cringe and freeze up when I break a dish, forget to buy something or bump into someone. I have this underlying fear that someone is going to hit me and scream at me that I'm stupid and need to grow up or else.


Even though I have already forgiven my father I never realized it takes more than that to get rid of this deep rooted anxiety thats been growing and controling the way I've viewed myself for years. Saddly there arnt any medications for this type of disorder, though some depression meds could help they dont  attack the real problem. The only way to get rid of this is through will power and constant reasurrance to my brain that failure is a learning experience and its ok, I'm gonna be ok.

Community Leaderbobinmaine
bobinmaine
Meditation helped me. There are some great guided meditations on you tube that are extremely helpful.

God Bless
phoenixfel
phoenixfel
You have earned my utmost respect and admiration for having the courage to face such formidable inner work. That really is something to be proud of. I can relate to anxiety around similar triggers from my ex, who took me all the way back to my childhood by screaming and bullying me and breaking things. I'm learning about something called EFT to heal my old wounds and damaged nervous system. So far it has helped with some of my fears and irritability. It's a long road and I hope I get there in one piece. Take care.
waybackjack
waybackjack
So many people sing high praises about meditation but I just don't get it. So the problem has to be me.

From my research, meditation requires emptying the mind of all thoughts and focus on breathing .... deep belly breathing and slow exhalation. I use this exercise to fight insomnia and it works about 50% of the time but don't see how it alleviates anxiety or depression.
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