Over the past year I've been really thinking on what I want to do with my life, not what my parents want of me for a change. But it's hard. I was raised to believe that tattoos are a sign that you dont like things about yourself so you use them to cover yourself and that they are ugly. I was raised to believe that I need a respectable job because its what everyone else in the family is doing. The fear of being shunned from my own family for the things I love has always bothered me. I recently discovered I want to be a tattoo artist just like I did back in highschool. I've been doing research into it, I know it costs alot to become an apprentice, I've been practicing drawing everyday to build my portfolio and I'll have to get my first ever tattoo.
However I still have this underlying fear that if I go this route my family will disown me......I also plan on becoming an elementary school art teacher because I do love kids and teaching. Plus its something my family would love. I feel so torn, I do love both lines of work and would like to pursue both but...the fear of my family looking down on me for something I love is hard to fight off.
Anybody ever had success with getting sex off the brain. 4 months abstinent and I want it to keep going. I know reverting back will not make me feel good. For the most part I do ok. But occassionaly, like today, the urges are quite strong and take a lot of effort and focus. Also hard to find things to keep you preoccupied during lockdown, glad it is ending soon. I'm impressed I have stayed...