Redsgal21

John wants us to think about moving. We can't really afford the house payment right now. I'm torn between pissed off and depressed about it. I can't work right now and he knows this which he's not...

I'm pretty sure I ventured into hypo mania today. I strated off watching reruns of 90210 online. Actually a few hours worth. I then cleaned the kitchen,cleaned the bathroom,baked some biscuits,did...

Our power went out this evening for about 6 hours. We had gone to the store for some food to grill and came back to a dark house. I lost my shit about the fact that we might lose all the food in the...

I don't know what to do with myself now that Minnie is gone. The house seems so lonely. John said the same thing. Waking up and going to bed are the worst times. I miss her so much. I pray every...

I feel so lost and alone without Minnie. I never imagined it could hurt this much. I try try try to listen to everybody telling me she's at peace but I can't accept that she's gone and how she left....

I mean seriously. I went to my physical therapy today and came home pissed. John says we might lose our house. We may have to move to an apartment. I mean really like I haven't lost enough already....

I freaked out over ham salad tonight. I didn't check the expiration date at the store and when I got home I saw it expired. John said it was no big deal. Too me it was the end of the world. Why?...

I would really like to go one day with having some type of disappointment. They seem to come on the regular from doctors,friends,acquaintances,family members,boyfriend,etc,etc,etc. Today it was  one...

I just threw it all way. Sometimes I really think I'm going crazy. I had blue nail polish on my toes and purple on my finger nails when I had my hysterectomy and when I was in the cardiac unit for 4...

I'm so over this week. So depressed and anxious. Minnie was diagnosed with a urinary tract infection and diabetes. She needs insulin shots every 12 hours,an antibiotic and pain meds. The pain meds...

I really don't know what to do with Minnie. I just caught her peeing right outside her liter box again. She hasn't done that for several weeks. I guess I'll call the vet tomorrow. John just thinks...

I had a pretty full day yesterday going to the bankrupcty lawyer,grocery shopping,doing  laundry and vacuuming. I also sorted all my medical bills and cleaned out my purse which was a disaster.I...

What is rock bottom? I was thinking about when I thought I hit it in 2002 when I was 30. I was fired from the Holiday Inn where I worked for 7 years. I was so depressed I stayed in bed for 2 weeks. I...

I tell my p doc and t doc I'm super angry all the time. Not like normal angry like I want to stab people angry and they think it's my hormones getting out of whack. There's no way that's all this is....

I really don't know how much more I can take. I really started feeling better last week then I crashed again the past week. And now my back. I have no idea how I sprained it. None. The past 3 times...