What's the plan?
I don't know what to do with myself now that Minnie is gone. The house seems so lonely. John said the same thing. Waking up and going to bed are the worst times. I miss her so much. I pray every night for her. I pray to God to tell her I'm sorry how her last few days were. The tears just keep coming. I'm going to keep praying because I feel so lost and I don't know what else to do.
I slep't from 2:30am until 1:45pm. I've never slept that late. I woke up a few times. Mom says it's because I'm depressed not suffering from depression. I disagree. I don't feel good and I'm afraid of a POTS flare up. I don't really have much of an appetite. Last night John took me for Ice cream which sounded good. I got a soft serve frozen yogurt. Today I ate toast and sausage when I woke up and John made some pasta and garlic bread for dinner. I went to the grocery with mom for awhile. John and I went for a walk around 9pm. I'm feeling restless. We've gone for a walk the past 5 days.
Going to my t doc tomorrow is going to be rough. I'm so mentally exhausted and physically exhausted. I have no strength. I feel so weak and sad. I don't want to go to bed but I need to take my trazodone now so it will be out of my system by noon. I just don't know what to do with myself. Everything seems like such a challenge. I'm going to keep praying.
I slep't from 2:30am until 1:45pm. I've never slept that late. I woke up a few times. Mom says it's because I'm depressed not suffering from depression. I disagree. I don't feel good and I'm afraid of a POTS flare up. I don't really have much of an appetite. Last night John took me for Ice cream which sounded good. I got a soft serve frozen yogurt. Today I ate toast and sausage when I woke up and John made some pasta and garlic bread for dinner. I went to the grocery with mom for awhile. John and I went for a walk around 9pm. I'm feeling restless. We've gone for a walk the past 5 days.
Going to my t doc tomorrow is going to be rough. I'm so mentally exhausted and physically exhausted. I have no strength. I feel so weak and sad. I don't want to go to bed but I need to take my trazodone now so it will be out of my system by noon. I just don't know what to do with myself. Everything seems like such a challenge. I'm going to keep praying.
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Red, I know what it\'s like to mourn a pet - esp when you feel guilty about something in their life that you feel responsible for. It\'s excruciating, but I do promise you that it gets better.
I think the excessive sleep is related to your grief. It\'s ok. You need the sleep right now, esp if the POTS is bugging you too. And if you\'re eating what John cooks, then it sounds like your diet is fine. Maybe you\'re not eating much? But just eating *something* is good.
Good luck at your appt today. I think it\'s a good idea to go, and I hope talking to your t helps... (((hugs))) Hang in there, lady.
Big Hugs and prayers Red