Redsgal21

I feel guilty about spending so much money in the past on things I really didn't need but enjoyed buying. I didn't need to get a new coach purse twice a year. I didn't need to spend $38 on estee...

I'm pretty sure I've been hypomanic for a few days now. Monday John's dad offered to take us to dinner and I went and actually enjoyed myself. Yesterday, I went to my neurologist appointment and...

I felt like I was on the phone all day today. I didn't sleep good at all last night. I swear it felt like I just took a sugar pill instead of my trazodone. I just laid there like seriously is the...

Why wouldn't I get denied for disability? I'm done thinking positive about anything. I'm serious. I'm over it. I worked in customer service for 25 years and I did my job. I swear nobody I'm dealing...

Well the estrogen patch is a no go for me. I can't handle it for some reason. It made me really agitated. I'll just have to learn to manage the hot flashes. My anxiety continues though. Now I'm...

So I work my ass off 60 hours a week for the last 5 years and don't win shit at the awards ceremony. I got nominated for most improved manager of the year a few years back but didn't win. This year...

I'm being to think it was a big mistake going off my thyroid med. I'm starting to feel more tired. I need better direction from certain doctors. My health can't be this much of a guessing game. I...

Well crap after feeling ok yesterday I felt like crap pretty much all day today. I woke up at 10:30, got some water,went to the bathroom and went back to sleep until 1pm. Ugh!! I need to stop doing...

I made it all the way through the grocery store today. John said he was proud of me. We had to go stock up because of the winter storm warning that's out for this weekend.  It actually wasn't too...

I loved my life over a year ago and now not so much. I use to love waking up at the same time everyday ready to go. I used to love my coffee that Im no longer allowed to drink. I use to love going...

Went to the cardiologist today. He's pretty sure my crappy last few days was a POTS flare up. I got 2 liters of saline in the office. It was a weird feeling. It went quickly and I was shaking and...

Where are these feeling coming from??? I am so pissed I can barely type. I've never felt this angry. It's scary.  I really need a mood stabilizer. I keep scratching my arms up. I have no idea where...

I'm planning on going to John's Grandpa's funeral tomorrow. I hope I feel up to going. I really want to be there for him and his mom. I felt ok the past few days and then awful again today. Maybe the...

I think I might have drifted into hypo mania today. I was anxious sitting on the couch so I got in the shower,put on make-up for the 3rd time in 6 months and told John I had to get out of the house....

That's how I feel about my life right now. I cannot stand seeing Minnie with the cone on her head. I feel so bad for her. Johns going to the vet to pick up a softer one tomorrow. I wish they would...