Redsgal21

 I had a somewhat decent day today and then I feel like I ruined it. Yesterday I went to my bankruptcy hearing and it actually was pretty easy except for the fact that I couldn't sleep the night...

Tomorrow is my bankruptcy hearing. We have to be there at 9:00 am. I have no idea how I'm going to make it that early. I haven't been up before 8 am in a year. I just took my trazodone so I shouldn't...

 My anxiety is off the charts again. I don't really understand why. I think it's my POTS flaring up. I had another episode yesterday. John came and sat by me and had me chug a water. I feel like I'm...

 So after having a somewhat decent day yesterday today sucked. I went to my POTS therapy and while I was on the exercise bike my heart rate went from 115 to 60 and I felt so weird and like I was...

I've been up and down the past few days both physically and mentally. I had my nerve testing done and they came back negative. I think the next step is to be referred to a rheumatologist. I hope it's...

I haven't felt like journaling for a few weeks. Sometimes I think some things are better left unsaid. I've been depressed lately especially the past few days. I had a few decent days and then...

 I've had a rough few days since the Butterly. Saturday I was really missing my Minnie all day. I don't just miss having a pet. I miss her. I was sitting in front of the garage on a lawn chair...

I realy haven't felt like journaling lately so I haven't. I took my trazodone at 3am last night. Around 4:30 John woke me up because I was having tremors or shaking. It feels my heart stops then...

I'm so sick of being sick. I felt ok today to start off with. I called the bankrupcty lawyer to ask him a few questions, made a few phone calls I was putting off,showered,etc. Then we decided to head...

 Well I saw the cardiologist yesterday and he said I can't work until I go at least 6 months without a POTS flare up. That really sucks because I just had one last week. It's possible the depakote...

 We went to John's dads house today to have him sign my papers for the food stamps. We ended up discussing my car and him refinancing our house payment.  It turned out to be a really depressing...

I'm pretty sure I'm in the middle of a POTS flare up. My heart rate was high when I woke up now it's low. MY BP is pretty low too. I guess it's a good thing I see my cardiologist on Tuesday. My best...

So I tried the depakote and felt awful. I mean awful. Chest tightness,stuffy nose,bad body aches,just generally felt awful. Plus I barely slept and it's suppose to cause you to be drowsy. It made my...

I'm definitely hypomanic right now borderline manic I would say. The pharmacy won't have my depakote in until Monday. I refuse to believe I have POTS today and I feel like nothing can touch me. I...

 I was telling Mom about the Clint story otherwise known as the worst day ever at the restaurant. I thought I'd told her before. Brett was texting me today about how his GM was having anxiety...