reisen55

More depressed.  I am closing down in many areas.  Somewhat literally in that the company I had to create in 2007 for a bad job is a noose around my neck and strangling me.  I am still job hunting...

Still extremely depressed.  Life has no meaning for me these days and I am wishing I would just die and be done with it all.  Not suicide at all, just don't want to be around planet earth anymore. 

Holidays were awful, very quiet and not worth remembering at all.  Even the tree was a lonely item this year.  Job hunt - I get calls and interviews but it is slow right now and my consulting...

December 25th I remember Christmas past sometimes, out in the barn is a rusting little Model T Ford (pictures exist) that I was given at age 7 in 1962 - and other years when there was much family...

Bought something today, perhaps not wise but necessary to brighten my mood if I am going to stay at home and job hunt - PIRATES 3 which is enormous fun.  I do hope something will surface soon and I...

Job search is slow, screwed up a client's computer today, extreme stress end very depressed right now. 

One bite on the job front, but for a super weird, 4 month assignment that seems a no-go from serveral standpoints.  Doubt it is flyable but at least word in is worth a smile.  Not in the best of...

Nothing at all on job hunt front  today, got resumes out and got nothing back, so a dismal day really.  Money is a worry, not huge, yet.  Wait folks - this could be an interesting journal over the...

Changed the photo from ME to a more anonymous one of Professor Fate, the villain from THE GREAT RACE, a 1965 favorite of mine.  Have to have some fun here.

Second week of job hunt tomorrow, one interview on Wednesday and sending out resumes tonight too.  We had an enjoyable day with friends in Cold Spring NY just to do something NORMAL but my wife is...

4:30 am, woke up, wide awake, stress and anger this time,  tossed and turned and very upset about the present moment.  I am having to ditch years of family memories because of my sister and her...

Extremely depressed now.  Job hunting is slow and I am putting stuff on Ebay that I do not want to but have to and along with it goes tons of burned family past.  Depressing. 

DAY AFTER THANKSGIVING - Had an interview in Manhattan was not good, came home and in order to pay off unemployment I have put two rare, family treasures onto Ebay.  A reply from my sister convinced...

ThanksgivingTo be thankful for being alive so I can sit on this board and vent my frustrations. To this board for existingTo my friends and family for being there, sometimes..............To our two...

1:35 pm, lotsa resumes out but I am now competing with Thanksgiving so giving up and just waiting for time to pass.  I am somewhat blocked in, feel that any time I am not job searching I am waisting...