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Keeping up the faith, picked up new medication for depression and ADHD syndrome, so will see how it goes over the next few days. Driving down to Camden NJ tomorrow - long trip.

Although I am getting help and assistance at the Yeager center in Rockland County, my wife continues to attack me.  Verbal abuse is just what I do not need right now.  I have asked her to stop -...

Money remains a huge worry these days and I am trying to dig up new business, having a brilliant idiot as a partner does not help very much nor does a lousy economy wherein my resumes go "out" and...

I am still here.

This morning my estranged sister wrote me a hellish latter blaming me for everything my parents did in the construction of their will and my best friend took her side of the argument.  I am...

Still pounding my chest to kill myself, do not want to be alive anymore.  Last night I ran the block twice to see if I could induce a heart attack.  Came close. 

Just sent an email to my sister.  The bitch You must understand thisFor the past 10 years I have been living in a financial hell. I have come down to a total savings at times of eleven cents.I have...

giving up.  I just had a fight and ran outside of the mouse, running down the street, pounding my chest to bring on a heart attack.  If I can do this long enough, I will die.

The time on the computer as I write this says 3:41 am, and once again I am wide awake sooooo early in the morning, worried about future income. Not to much is in the pipeline right now and previous...

Seven years.I should be soooo negative in my posts, but today I have reason to be of cheer for I survivved.  In 2001 I was working for Aon Consulting, 101st floor of the South Tower.  1,500 stairs...

Over the weekend I came to the conclusion that my independent career is destroyed through a bad partner relationship.  Some of my journals touch on this point, but my partner is a real idiot savant...

Whenever I get into a fight with my spouse, these days, all I do is pound my chest to try to bring on a heart attack.  This is probably same as cutting but I am so depressed now that I really want...

Same holds true, and I am sending out resumes very rapidly these days.  Not a good time of year all.  Extremely depressed and because money remains so tight, my earlier posts about rebuilding a...

Over the past few weeks, I have confronted some terrible truths about my technical associate in my independent career, essentially that he has wrecked two outside accounts in so far as income for me...

See my post in depression, my financial situation has turned horrid because of a partner who has screwed me out of income, my car cannot be taken care of properly.  I just spent 10 minutes screaming...