reisen55

This morning I went up to Monroe NY to work on a computer, stopped by a small deli for coffee and read the local paper.  Warwick NY - very sad.  A 10 week old kitten died at Warwick Animal Shelter,...

if I could kill myself, I would

I was just checking out profile here and the google adds that came up along side the screen, on the right side, were all about  sex offenders!!!!!!!!!!  If THAT is not something to be depressed...

Keeping a job hunt open, no responses today so bought a good lunch and am very much in the dumps

Today I came to realize that my partner in my independent consulting activity is totally irresponsible.  Technically brilliant, but an idiot savant and I am $ 2,900 into an account for about 45 days...

But woke up as I dread doing at 3:30 am, unable to sleep and worrying about everything.  I am also severely disappointed in many friendships too and promises that people, these days, never seem to...

Spouse overdrew her checking account and is livid.  I am convinced she is unbalanced, went from happy to dreadful within 30 min.  I do not have money coming in fast enough and continue to pound my...

Wish it was happier.  Checks come in and they go out.  Because of wedding anniversary, my spouse DEMANDED an expensive present that I cannot afford and money issues have escalated beyond my control...

Very stressed again.  Two checks came in and I deposited them only to have Chase lose them and they have yet to appear in my account.  We have some IRS payments to make and I wanted to have money...

GOT CHECKS by the grace of god and only $5 to my name right now, so am feeling much better thank you, but going independent is a helluva life decision as you people can see from my NEGATIVE posts of...

Stress is at max.  Want to die.

Waiting for checks to come in is mindbending.  I am sooooo financially stressed it is not funny and just came back from a networking partner anticipating a $2000 check that would have been very...

My choice of a partner has proven most problematic, so I am quietly abandoning outside work as a total career and going back to full time hunting.  Some good positions but I am walking away from...

May 14, 1988 - Bachelor party in Kent, Connecticut.  My parent's owned a red cabin in the woods, on 80 acres of wooded land.  My grandfather built it in 1939.  Soooo many memories there and that...

It has been ages since I have written here, some by choice as an independent consultant I am concentrating on positives.  But of late I realize the immensity of what I am doing - no office, no...