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Evening and a bit tense around the house.  It is the lack of being able to "do" normal things that is so disruptive and a constant reminder of lack of job.  I have eleven resumes out today and more...

Still here and in one piece, so far.  Slept mostly through the night which is amazing as I fear that 3:30 am wake up with ceiling stare.  If I do not get something soon, that will begin to happen...

Evening Therapy: I do have a small outside business that I have run for about 10 years and it does not bring in enough money to cover, but the simple act of visiting my accounts and performing...

I think the biggest pain and stress is, beyond money, that I feel a complete failure to my wife who has a good job with a school, and I helped her set up her classroom today.  Extreme envy for that...

Job hunt started and worries are continuing to build.  I am extremely stressed at the present time and staying very quiet tody as I take it all in.  Financial panic is very easy right now. 

Stress has arrived, thought it would.  Daylight returns the terrors of job hunting to the fore and since I  was employed on my own dime and corporation at my last job, unemployment is doubtful. ...

I'll let this journal know how I sleep tonight too.  Right now I am nursing a nice Napoleon Brandy and have an outside business per se but it earns pennies compared to what I actually DO NEED. ...

Not a good evening at all.  Just received a call from my "employer" at Mercedes Benz that I have been fired.  This was a paycheck job by itself but I have to compare it to First Consulting Group...

What I wrote in June remains so today, and further news from my sister indicate tales of deception and outright theft of my parent's estate that is very painful.  She has told me thing she did not...

As it turns out, the relationship with my sister is quite impossible for me to maintain.  The division of my parent's estate to an 85.5% division to her favor, and her subsequent retention of that...

Ahha, now months down the road and while the Mercedes Benz job is not the best, it is far from the worst and that job - the one I got out of by nervous breakdown - is now a THANK GOD I AM OUT OF THAT...

Whatever crisis or series of them I have been through seem to be slowly ending, the job in Montvale is not that bad and it seems a base to build on. Now I look back at those days in November when I...

Job is still not the best but I am adjusting to and was able to press some $$$ out of a client to maintain Cobra payments on health care. Almost lost that and I have been very very bad worrying...

Job remains a placeholder job, but money is reaching a critical mass issue, my spouse is collapsing like a house of cards. I have income next paycheck period and lotsa stress both in terms of $$ I...

Job with Mercedes Benz in Montvale is passable, not the best but far from the worst, so one minor crisis done with for the moment.