reisen55

Things are as rough as they can be.  Read this journal entry and see how many more entries you can pack into your day. Our dog, 2 year old schnoodle, has come down with Lymes. My associate on...

Not a reaction at all from my wife.  Giving up working for myself - does not bat an eye, so I am very depressed and disappointed.  Not a hug, no caring.  Just make money and that's that.  Doubt I...

Money is very tight still, checks are not arriving in speed and I am starting to think that working my own business is just not going to fly.  Accordingly, I am beginning a normal job hunt again and...

Weird Endings and Discoveries It has been ages since I wrote here, been dealing with life stress rather well and making some money as an independent consultant.  But tonight my daughter brought...

Wednesday morning and I am stressed beyond what is normal.  Money issues are crowding my life into insignificance and while I spent a good breakfast with a good friend, the moment I return home I am...

Monday morning and an interview in the city - but I am still enormously depressed inside an all too quiet home and going slowly insane.  Stressed to the max and the only thing that is right is that...

Lonely. My wife is on a one week trip to Italy with a good friend.  Ages ago in my father's company, I had the opportunity to travel the world; South Africa, Japan (twice), Europe and spots...

I have not written in some time, been busy with job hunt and client work, but this morning my wife left for a trip to Italy and at this time - out of work but working on consulting activities and...

A rainy lousy Friday, went into the city for an interview with a headhunter, so nothing much really to write of and attempting to contact the Clinton Foundation for a follow up on desktop support...

Spent today at the Staten Island Museum doing real work to earn real money and had a thoroughly enjoyable time of it.  Came home and got an email response to a resume for a job, desktop support, for...

Yes, I am suicidal now.  I have started writing the suicide note.

Is there a symbol worse than the red one?  I AM SO TOTALLY FUCKING DEPRESSED now, and with spouse going to Italy for a week soon, and I am running out of cash, the suicide thoughts are entering...

Progress?  Just read my journal entry for last year and it is about as bad as this year.  Not a good thing.

Still under enormous stress but making a business trip Thursday to make some money at outside consulting.  And doing a bit of a good thing for a local gas station, fellow there has a computer...

Since so many of my entries are fairly bleak, I am still alive and on planet earth, sending out resumes and hoping for a new job, but stress is extremely extremely high these days.