More depressed.  I am closing down in many areas.  Somewhat literally in that the company I had to create in 2007 for a bad job is a noose around my neck and strangling me.  I am still job hunting but in a recession economy I anticipate the unknown as bad.  Going quietly insane and wish my heart would just seize up and kill me flat.  No suicide, just stop and that's it.

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hang in there, i know how hard it is to be told that..my words that i use to remind me that i don\'t want to die (cause i tried suicide in 2000) is been there, done that, got smart, moved on.. i have to fight the depression you and i feel everyday...i just want to say that things will get better for you...hang in there...jaime
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Try not to give up hope on the job thing. Something will come along. You may have to change direction a little or something within your job scope. Hang in there.