reisen55

Sad today, move to Georgia last year was financially devastating and I learned I am a BiPolar 2 individual too, which has caused god knows how much havoc in my life.  Looked at baby pics of me taken...

We moved to Georgia in March of 2014 and I gave up all income I had up north as an independent consultant.  As a result, I found a position with a local firm in about a month or so that would have...

More or less made up with my daughter over the past few months and have won clients and lost some.  Right now I am inbetween funds, some clients are late payers and tomorrow is wife's birthday so I...

I thought I had made progress.  I was wrong.  My anger level is still gawd awful and I am a thorough fool.  Probably lost my daughter tonight over dinner and I am as blue as I can be.  She should...

For many years I have had less than positive feelings about  my parents, having given 90% of their estate to my sister.  Israel changed that too, put things into perspective and I am building a...

Life changing!!!  I was able to put all of my World Trade Center angst and anxietys into their basket, overcame flying phobias and learned to live for today, and not the past or worry about the...

Back to pounding my chest again to bring on a heart attack,seriously considering sleeping pills to die quietly. 

After a thousand odd journal entries that are very depressing, I have to a good degree mastered stress, and with financial troubles all over the place but invoices out there, I am much better at...

Nobody really does anything anymore, so thinking of resigning when I return from a vacation in Atlanta this week that I do not want to go on.Bye.

Some idiot re-ended my wife's car this morning, I was driving, on the way home.  Total collapse on my part too.  Overwhelmed with stress, money, income, credit calls and now my wife's car is...

Still pounding my chest to kill myself, really want a heart attack so that I can die quickly and easily.,

Found the autobiography of Sid Caesar on a used book shelf and I commend it highly, in reading it, I saw many of my own demons at work - not the same as his nor the same addictions, but depression is...

No longer really dealing with my wife, we are mostly separate now.  I want to leave so badly and just have a new life somewhere else.  Very depressed and not suicidal yet, but money is horrible and...

Again, suicide thoughts.  Financial stress and living in dirt.  Don't want to live anymore.

We buried our much loved miniature schnauzer tonight, he passed over to the Rainbow Bridge the night before last at a doggie day care camp.  Full ceremony inclusive of mourner's kaddish read for...