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Weird Endings and Discoveries It has been ages since I wrote here, been dealing with life stress rather well and making some money as an independent consultant.  But tonight my daughter brought...

Wednesday morning and I am stressed beyond what is normal.  Money issues are crowding my life into insignificance and while I spent a good breakfast with a good friend, the moment I return home I am...

Monday morning and an interview in the city - but I am still enormously depressed inside an all too quiet home and going slowly insane.  Stressed to the max and the only thing that is right is that...

Lonely. My wife is on a one week trip to Italy with a good friend.  Ages ago in my father's company, I had the opportunity to travel the world; South Africa, Japan (twice), Europe and spots...

I have not written in some time, been busy with job hunt and client work, but this morning my wife left for a trip to Italy and at this time - out of work but working on consulting activities and...

Back to pounding my chest again to bring on a heart attack,seriously considering sleeping pills to die quietly. 

After a thousand odd journal entries that are very depressing, I have to a good degree mastered stress, and with financial troubles all over the place but invoices out there, I am much better at...

Nobody really does anything anymore, so thinking of resigning when I return from a vacation in Atlanta this week that I do not want to go on.Bye.

Some idiot re-ended my wife's car this morning, I was driving, on the way home.  Total collapse on my part too.  Overwhelmed with stress, money, income, credit calls and now my wife's car is...

Still pounding my chest to kill myself, really want a heart attack so that I can die quickly and easily.,

Found the autobiography of Sid Caesar on a used book shelf and I commend it highly, in reading it, I saw many of my own demons at work - not the same as his nor the same addictions, but depression is...

No longer really dealing with my wife, we are mostly separate now.  I want to leave so badly and just have a new life somewhere else.  Very depressed and not suicidal yet, but money is horrible and...

Again, suicide thoughts.  Financial stress and living in dirt.  Don't want to live anymore.

We buried our much loved miniature schnauzer tonight, he passed over to the Rainbow Bridge the night before last at a doggie day care camp.  Full ceremony inclusive of mourner's kaddish read for...

And sometimes it ends in odd ways.  This weekend traveled down for grand daughter's bat mitzvah in Atlanta and put our three dogs into Camp Bow Wow for care.  Winston, our 15  year old schnauzer,...