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spouse is going nuts over health care, and I just lost a client too.  less income to pay for it, and she is demanding an immediate policy or divorce.  suicidal thoughts again.

And the outside business is not growing at all despite my throwing more work at it.  My wife is going crazy because I do not have health coverage at all and I am going to be working at Burger King...

FIREDJob lasted less than a month, extremely depressed.  I am an independent consultant and going back to corporate I THOUGHT was workable, but out of the blue in a closed shop I was fired and am...

Here's one long overdue.  Personal crisis of 2008 over, new job is very good and my life is much more in balance.  Feel I turned a huge corner in late 2008.  Got local help for myself, pushed ADHD...

I have not written an entry maybe forever because been solving personal issues and watching economics at home, but last night least something good surfaced, as a supplemental issue - JOB, a real job...

Purchased a $50 doll for grandaughter in Atlanta.  No thank you.  Purchased earings for my wife, she returned them.  Christmas can go to hell.

Way long ago, in 1981, when I was living in a lovely apartment in Wyckoff NJ, we (first wife and I) needed a box for the Holiday decorations.  Downstairs in the basement we found a big, solid box...

Model T Ford  1962 The wrapping paper still afresh, the carpet floor now a messChristmas day had come and gone, and yet my father sensed something wrongHe sniffed the air as if to see if something...

SOOOOOOOOOOOO we shall see, I had a long talk with my daughter last night that resolved issues and solved some at home too, long overdue.  Job hunt = dispair sometimes but nothing more to do.  So,...

I had a wonderful conversation with my daughter tonight, ironed out many stresses and my wife, still, refuses to see change and is making up stuff to keep anger going.  Back to pounding my chest to...

Worthless here, I am tired of mental illness and want to be done with everything.  That I was born is clearly a mistake and wish I had not been put here.  Nothing in my life means anything...

I have discovered the joy of cutting. 

And if there was an easy way to do it, I would do it right now.

Horrible, right back to the gutter and depression, major this time.  My daughter and her boyfriend are moving in and she sparked a huge argument last night, my wife blames me for everything right...

Always hard changing gears in life, but I am banking on a part time something soon to supplement the outside activity I do with computers, some of these jobs are worthless really so I am more...