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Nobody really does anything anymore, so thinking of resigning when I return from a vacation in Atlanta this week that I do not want to go on.Bye.

Some idiot re-ended my wife's car this morning, I was driving, on the way home.  Total collapse on my part too.  Overwhelmed with stress, money, income, credit calls and now my wife's car is...

Still pounding my chest to kill myself, really want a heart attack so that I can die quickly and easily.,

Found the autobiography of Sid Caesar on a used book shelf and I commend it highly, in reading it, I saw many of my own demons at work - not the same as his nor the same addictions, but depression is...

No longer really dealing with my wife, we are mostly separate now.  I want to leave so badly and just have a new life somewhere else.  Very depressed and not suicidal yet, but money is horrible and...

Again, suicide thoughts.  Financial stress and living in dirt.  Don't want to live anymore.

We buried our much loved miniature schnauzer tonight, he passed over to the Rainbow Bridge the night before last at a doggie day care camp.  Full ceremony inclusive of mourner's kaddish read for...

And sometimes it ends in odd ways.  This weekend traveled down for grand daughter's bat mitzvah in Atlanta and put our three dogs into Camp Bow Wow for care.  Winston, our 15  year old schnauzer,...

It has been some time since I posted here, a good sign really as I learned that people write here when they are generally feeling pretty poor and lousy.  Well, I am on medication for stress and also...

Not in a bad way, but tomorrow my daughter becomes married and tonight I had dinner with my sister, repairing a 15 year broken relationship all due to a hospital stay and a reconsideration of all...

SURPRISE - it was not pnemonia but 5 days in Good Samaritan Hospital, room T345 and life changes.  Always does when the fellow in the white nightgown, as W. C. Fields called him, touches your...

I am having heart troubles and my spouse does not give a rats ass.  Wish I was dead and working now to achieve this end. 

Closing down the shop here for a while, I am tired of postings and need distance from this.  True this is a chat board but it is a poor substitute for real friendships and such.  Computers are a...

Another huge fight, another hopeless night.  My chest pounding has produced tangible results too.  I am short of breath now constantly and if a heart attack comes along it will not be too soon for...

That if I write a positive journal entry and report that stress is normal and life is fair and good, nobody responds.ButIf I wrote that I am suicidal as hell and want to jump off a bridge, THAT GETS...