reisen55

Probably detonated another job, a part-timeone but I let good old anger get the better part of me and let my boss have it.  Instantly realized I fucked myself royale and am very depressed at lack of...

For the past two weeks what was a quiet home descended into chaos as the grandkids, 3 of them, came for a visit and it was exciting,wild and expensive.  A demanding time too that shattered some of...

I am fighting for every bit of sanity I have and losing now big time.  My clients are not paying jme for work and I have everything going wrong.  Suicidal thoughts are back again and stress as...

I am now working three jobs at once, a bit of a stress load but making money and losing my mind in the process. However ... I joined Classmates and found a thread on September 11 so I joined it. ...

To get the head together.  I often write a journal in a bad way and really blowing off steam, which results in a ton of hugs and usually within a few hours I am sorry I wrote the damn thing.  So...

did not die last night, wanted to. have to go through a day. still want to.

total collapse.  I am looking at 30000 wedding and I have nothing,zero,zip and should be dead.  I am back to suicidal thoughts.  it is 120 feet from the tappanzee bridge to the water.  sleeping...

If you browse my pictures you will see a cabin in the woods in Kent. Connecticut.  Well it was torn down in 1995 and rebuilt as a new structure - long gone to my touch. Just found that it is...

going downhill very fast now.  wife is angry and wants me out of the house.  my business has failed and I have no money.  suicidal thoughts again.

Last night's journal was downright rotten and scared the people who read it.  Today I had a fair productive day of work, and have more tomorrow so was nervous last night about tooooo many subjects...

My wife no longer listens to my financial concerns, I am almost broke and in debt like made, no unemployment is possible and consulting income is a fraction of what I need.  I am considering...

12:05 am and I am wide awake with financial stress and worry.  New job tomrrow is nice but noe enough by a mile right now.  Major loss of consulting income right now and I am stressing to the...

Just came in from a day on the road, a very progressive interview in Rochelle Park and then traveled to HSH Associates to discuss the rot relationship with my co-consultant there, and came to several...

Just learned I suffer from tinnitus, have since a sudden hearing loss in 1976.  Incredible and oddly enough I am relieved to know it is a real condition.

Mu daughter's boyfriend just came into my office for "the talk" and gave him permission to purchase a ring. AAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH Dug up the lyrics to YOU CAN LET GO NOW,...