reisen55

It has been some time since I posted here, a good sign really as I learned that people write here when they are generally feeling pretty poor and lousy.  Well, I am on medication for stress and also...

Not in a bad way, but tomorrow my daughter becomes married and tonight I had dinner with my sister, repairing a 15 year broken relationship all due to a hospital stay and a reconsideration of all...

SURPRISE - it was not pnemonia but 5 days in Good Samaritan Hospital, room T345 and life changes.  Always does when the fellow in the white nightgown, as W. C. Fields called him, touches your...

I am having heart troubles and my spouse does not give a rats ass.  Wish I was dead and working now to achieve this end. 

Closing down the shop here for a while, I am tired of postings and need distance from this.  True this is a chat board but it is a poor substitute for real friendships and such.  Computers are a...

Another huge fight, another hopeless night.  My chest pounding has produced tangible results too.  I am short of breath now constantly and if a heart attack comes along it will not be too soon for...

That if I write a positive journal entry and report that stress is normal and life is fair and good, nobody responds.ButIf I wrote that I am suicidal as hell and want to jump off a bridge, THAT GETS...

Chest pounding continues, she continues to nag and attack and we cannot even enjoy one night of peace.  I want to bring on a heart attack and I am doing a damn good job of it.  Anyway off of this...

For the past week I have been micro-managed to death by my wife, who I shall call Fastrada.  Look up the wife of Charlemagne and you get an idea.  Even little things such as "turn on the turn...

I am picking up my business cards on consulting and throwing in the towel, anything I find is good but clients are not paying on time and I am broke.  Do not want to wake up in the morning anymore.

About money, cursing, yelling, screaming.  Want to end it all.

I am again reaching another end point, my finances are nill and my clients are delaying in sending checks.  My wife simply requests and demands money that I do not have and I am sick of depression...

With wife, we hate each other now and between money issues, depression and stress I am falling apart. Again and again.  Once again suicide is an option.  God please kill me.

I am getting an apartment and leaving my wife.

My spouse believes that I can walk into an account, do computer work and walk out with a check.  I have one account that happens with but most are normal small businesses with the usual net 30 days,...