another saturday night and i aint got nobody

well, another week went by. here i am again. i cant wait till mk goes to work so i can get on here. j is avoiding me. he knows i need money. i know its hard wene your mother has to beg from you. i feel realy bad about it, but i have to. going to clinic on wed. its a med check up and i will get my insurance card. thats what i realy need. i have so many little things wrong whith me on top of the major things. we will see what happensi wont let them guinie peg me. hopefully i might get some good sleep tomight. i wish i could sleep in my bed. dont have tv in room. have to have it on wene i sleep. helps me from thinking of everything all at once. my mind races all the time. thats why i think i allways have a song in my head. if anyone looked at me whith the singing, they would think i was a very ahppy person. they would be wrong. ive allways had a song of somekind in my head. even on relay bad days. i think thats why i havnt went completely crazy. or i coould allready be and i just sont know it. i dont know how many things can fit in one head, but i got them all. ok, again going to trry to clean this place. untill later