gimmestrength2008

i cant believe this crap has to happen now. i can only stay on here for short time. its just another reason that im so crazd. was planning for a nice uneventfull evening online but NO. i cant even...

well, i did it i left the house today for the first time in about 5 days. had to get up so early and it was very hard. once i was out i felt pretty good. it was cold but sunny. went to herb store and...

well, i did it i left the house today for the first time in about 5 days. had to get up so early and it was very hard. once i was out i felt pretty good. it was cold but sunny. went to herb store and...

boy they realy know how to do it. they put on idol and lost and ncis on the same night. taping idol and ncis, saw the lost last week. its hard for us people withh add like me. have to watch many...

i cant beleive it. finnaly american idol with ELLEN i cant wait. its pretty bad when this is the exitment in my life. ive been waiting for so long. then they have those stupid "GUEST JUDGES"?! who do...

i cant beleive it. finnaly american idol with ELLEN i cant wait. its pretty bad when this is the exitment in my life. ive been waiting for so long. then they have those stupid "GUEST JUDGES"?! who do...

well, this is my last entry for tonight. son will be home soon. i havnt made any freinds yet on here. im very sad and lonely today. took my xanex and stomach pills. i realy hope i can make a freind...

well, here i go again. im very lonely today. its hard to know how to make freinds on here. just got back on but am very rusty. waithing for my shows to come on so i can tape them and watch at my...

well, just looked at old freind list and i dont think they are on here anymoore. i have no freinds on here or in real life. i dont remember how to do the freind thing. im very lonely. its a shame. if...

i feel very sad today got up  knida early and stayed up for a few hours, then took my meds and ate 6 waffles and went back to sleepson woke me up wene leaving for school so i thought id better get...

well, took meds and sleeping pill so i can type a little better. just had dinnerat midnight. thats no good no wonder im so fat and dont want to ever do anything. dont think ill leave tomorow only to...

well, here i am again. so nervoius i cant realy type very good have to take my xanex. its allready 9.30 pm and i havnt ate or takin my pills yet. just so tired and nervoius. oh if i could live...

well, here i am again. so nervoius i cant realy type very good have to take my xanex. its allready 9.30 pm and i havnt ate or takin my pills yet. just so tired and nervoius. oh if i could live...

well, surprise, didnt go anywere or do anything. got up early, wrote in journal, took meds and went back to sleep. didnt wake till 6.30. now im up. so hot today. son out drinking so i got on here...

i am sooo happy to be online again. son moved bakd home AGEIN. he didnt make it out in the real world again. but at least i get to be online some now. probly only at night durring the week. havnt...