just waiting for my shows to come on

well, here i go again. im very lonely today. its hard to know how to make freinds on here. just got back on but am very rusty. waithing for my shows to come on so i can tape them and watch at my lesiure. should be cleaning house but of course im not. big surprise... its not too bad but not too good. i cleaned for bf for superbowl. i feel so old. one year closer to the big 50. that is realy freading me outl son at school so i have to get on here when i can. i havent felt this alone in a while. i ussually like it but i want sone online freinds. im so shy in real life that i hope i can make freinds on here. oh the hot flashes are so bad. have to go and get my passhion flower root soon. son is going to buy it for my birthday which was last fri. its supposed to snow but we will see. man i am realy boaring now. thats what happens when you dont go anywere or do anything. have to go out wed and thurs so that will be good.stamach hurts as ussuall. will try to get back on in a little while if son doesnt come home early. dont know what time he will be here. if not tonight then maybe tomorow.....