gimmestrength2008

well, just got back from boyfreinds house. it was soo hot out here. im sooo glad to be back home. we allways end up fightning. i cant do anything right wene im out there. i feel like a second class...

well, im up and its only 8 a.m. i dont know why i dont go back to sleep. im having some cofee in my very clean apartment. i relay like it when its clean. going to reay try this time. i will have to...

well, they did the inspection, i passed. at leaste thats over. place is pretty clean and i did it allmyself. i feel very good about that. im going to try to deep it clean. trying to figure what im...

well, here i am again. slept a little. have sore throught, figures. its realy storming here. sis is taking a nap here. need to go out and get something to eat. its realy going to start pouring here...

well, been trying to get on here for hours. finnally got the connection going again. sont know how, but i did. up early. trying to clean. sonny doing worse. uncle now for shure has lung cancer. im...

went to aunts last night to check on her. sonny is dying, its so sad. there is so much sickness and death in our family. its just so sad. so glad i can get on here and it realy helps. in prosses of...

well, got up pretty early today. cleaned a little. went out today harray for me. went to bank for my aunt, got gas for car and went to wallmart and shop n save. thats alo9t for me. havnt ate yet,...

well, b.f. cancelled again for today. so im in the house again. trying to get on twitter. i love craig ferguson. cant find him. evedentaly im now following russell brand. i like him but i dont think...

well, went to f.s. office w/ social worker. it was horrible. im so tired and sad today. my place smells so bad. i wish i could get all the stale air out. its mostly ciggerette smell. i only notice it...

well, it was nice while it lasted. he did day it would go off soon. there is an email saying its overdue. so im trying to get on here realy fast before it goes off. its saturday at about 11a.m. was...

well, got up very early. son left today. i will be able to get on here a little moore. will try to get back on later. have to go get some coffee started. feel bad that i didnt take him to bus...

this stupid computer is not working for me tonight. it is giving me magor anxiaty. i went whith aunt to the ymca and went swimming. it was good. im now a mamber. im so tired. i look so fat in my old...

wait one min have to get a cig be right back.... ok, im back. ive allready taken all my night meds so im pretty messed up right now just sleepy. its been raining and storming here all night. son...

well, so far the appt went better than i thought. i of course gave too much information as ussuall. i wish i would stop that. im allways saying too much or inappropriate things. glad son was there....

well, here i am again. i finnaly went to see my counseler. im not doing well at all. ive backslide big time. i am even a little worse. couldnt go to group today. i cant be in that room with all those...