alantm
Status: just lost ...looked a lot..and no paths ..im lost
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lost my post screw all this
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sadall i do is worki have personal life at all.im see as a jokeor turned away because i dont fit no of this makes me feel betteryes i can work and workbut i dont feel loved or cared forwhere is my...
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more or less finaly finishedone of my projects atferyears. feel oddalso a bit lone
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im totally worn outlast few gigs playing ive be getting worse at playingthis one tonight i felt i couldnt finish the show the last few songsit would have been an easyer option to say if you cut your...
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again working onlyworking to muchand aloneto much self talkway to muchand im going to bed alone fro all my past andpeople i thought were there
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my alone self is kicking inits myold selfits like the one that can hold its breath under water.im finding myself with old thoughtslike old times. ive had a few days of drama with the exan impossible...
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tonight i went to a placeand the time i remember being there last i told a friendi had 27 cuts on meso the place wasnt that great for me to bethe place had not changed at allmakes you wounder if i...
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birds are singingim a bit pissed off about sleap after such a useless day
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working stupid amount of timefor nothingeven my mum is saying stop you will get illmay as well work what else will i do with my lifethe weeks has passed in one roomnow its a music playing weekendlast...
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feel worriedabout lifemiss my turkish exeven though it was very one sided with her i thought i had reached somewherethat it was all more eveni had gone through all the crap to reach this.i look back...
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confusing timesim working so hard on projects that i am blinkeredive have come nearly to the end of all the work i can doresearch wise anywayso its feeling a bit blank i have to go back to selling...
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nose divingi feel so f***ing bleeki stopped for a moment and put in to words what i feeland im f***edits a totall dead end
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early start tomorrow sound check at 10 amplaying at an out door festivali hope my legs cope
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how things have revertedthoughts on dark stuff all over these pages
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woke early and worked all day14 hours or soemotioanly im not getting what i need in life at allim filling life with workalots of past memories and flash thoughtsromaticaly im at a total lossi have no...
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