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  Journal Like

  Posted by: alantm

  Posted: 05/25/2024

  alantm liked alantm's journal .

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  New Friend

  Posted by: alantm

  Posted: 03/15/2019

  alantm became friends with Cindys74.

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  Discussion Comment

  Posted by: alantm

  Posted: 03/11/2019

  alantm commented on the discussion Frustrated .

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  Here still

  Posted by: alantm

  Posted: 03/11/2019

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  I’m on this nerve pill , I’m not to sure how it’s working but seems to help if I don’t lift stuff .it knocks me out , it’s like a sleeping pill .im totally confused by life , im smack in the middle of aspie central 

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  Journal Comment

  Posted by: alantm

  Posted: 03/11/2019

  alantm commented on blondie32's journal About Me

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  New Friend

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  Posted: 03/11/2019

  alantm became friends with blondie32.

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  Discussion Comment

  Posted by: alantm

  Posted: 01/28/2019

  alantm commented on the discussion Getting a diagnosis.

• Asperger Syndrome
  

  Discussion Comment

  Posted by: alantm

  Posted: 01/28/2019

  alantm commented on the discussion Getting a diagnosis.

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  New pill

  Posted by: alantm

  Posted: 01/28/2019

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  I’m in the first week of the nerve pill.i thought it might be working, then 3 days ago I got a really bad pain , crippling. It was out of the blue.it was almost as bad as the original damage pain .ive recovered to the state I was pre pain but the pain came on with no build up or warning.Im left feeling that it was so random it could happen any time again .

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  3 weeks after

  Posted by: alantm

  Posted: 01/28/2019

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  a close friend died on xmas morning.wasnt found till the 29th its had a strange effect on me .things seem pointless.not depressed but it’s pointless.2nd to die in last 6 months .i don’t have any friends left that arnt 45 miles away .my spine has been damaged for about 12 years .it got worse about 8 months ago . I had an mri and a spine injection that was very painful but did little.the last 7 weeks I’ve been limping and have tramadol, partly left over from the injection. I got a new...

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  I came to the end

  Posted by: alantm

  Posted: 07/24/2017

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  My creative life is totally f ckedIt's game over. Today I start work in a very boring job where I'm like a low pay guard dog.In other news my sex life is crap, I feel unloved an outsider . My art is dead along with my only talent.I still long for lost love . I'm still tragically distant 

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  Failure

  Posted by: alantm

  Posted: 06/15/2017

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  I wake thinking how I'm a massive failure. .I go to sleep thinking if self harm would help ,it's an old thought I dissmis but it's always there.Today I fell I'm so sick of trying,  I can't be anything that's a success..I'm emotionally alone always. Today it was almost to much .

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  Change

  Posted by: alantm

  Posted: 06/14/2017

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  Not a lot has changed ,arm pain is new .Doctors were no use .Lost friends, were they even friends. I'm still alone. Old school friend is dieing of cancer. All my work is dead too .I go to bed and always think should I harm myself, I wake thinking I'm a failure. .I'm spendingdays waiting for the day to end,,, back to the horrible loop.Wishing thato things had worked out and also wishing I had a purpose and value .I really don't 

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  Aspie .

  Posted by: alantm

  Posted: 06/14/2017

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  Since 2010  I've had the aspie thing thrown at me .I think they maybe right.You know the first thought that comes into my head when I wake up is looser and then Fuck up .I've basically fail at everything I've ever done ,even if I succede the results were a flop .I'm built to fail .I have growIng physical pains .I now have sore arms that never get better over 6 months 

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  Physical

  Posted by: alantm

  Posted: 01/29/2017

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  Worried I'm turning off to the world. It's complex