alantm
Status: just lost ...looked a lot..and no paths ..im lost
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still very alone work is hardand im not even dreaming nice thingsi need something.today while thinking this and how my life isi thought maybe i need to beleive in god.i have nothing in my life at...
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today almost screwed up to the point of getting myself killednot goodim very worn down and im not thinking right.im very scrambled so almost had a big accidenttoday i got a flat tyerso i had a...
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ok todayworn outworked to much over about 8 .9 daystrying to get a gap for my self to recovertoday i fet draindedworking lots but i could not understand the feeling i was gettingi can work and...
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so what can i type todaythe quiz night has me worrying about digging up the pastwith the exis it just a chance for them to tell me about her ..i know im not a church typeand they tend to try and help...
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i saw a girl on the date site that i think is really prettyand is not as shallow as the normmal ones i took a chance and sent her an emailshe is very nice i dont think she will give me a 2nd lookbut...
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ive been asked to go out to a quiz night on thursday..but its a friend of my church girlits like digging in the past i dont think it tis realy a good ideabut it is a social nightand i dont do...
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final for todayworn downa very long week of hard workive pushed my self so muchthoughtsi have hit the same money my ex used to brag aboutso the idea of her being better than i am isnt true..church...
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so if i can say what i like feeling alonefeeling still un wantednot specialun noticedand time is passing byi want to be lovedbut i cant find anyone who thinks about mesaving up stupid money...
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woke earlyi had dreams that woke mepast dealings ,poeple i didnt likei was back theremy hear was racing and i woke over heatedi even spoke out . but at least in the dream i was leaving
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how do i feel ?i dont even feel like me.im just chasing a target----
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still shut down from peoplethe doors are closed because they are not helping me at alleven if i bother with them its just the same or i hearbad inputim sick of hearing what i am not good enough for
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im still chacing moneythats quite odd for me i dont normalythink of money as anythingi think its to do with every other door failing..i did hit over 700but i really need more before sundayi need to...
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another salei sell while i sleap because i sell globalthis is to austrailiai do a lot ot to aus and america now at 686i made 381 in the last 24 hours !thats crazy ive never had that much in 24...
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just checked salesim doing ok this week againhit £350 by day 3 4 more days to try and whack the sales upso its a possible £700 ??? ihave people how look down on me as a looser who earn no where...
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going to bedstaying up is just wearing me outand it wont get any better
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