It's been a year since my first therapy session. I still remember how hard it was for me to go in. I used to sit for hours in the lobby of the health centre, too scared to make an appt, too scared to go home. And the 'screening'. Oh boy, I was a sobbing little mess, blubbering all over the doc's office. Lol. Memories. I think I've made real progress since. Therapy isn't as scary, I no longer skip my sessions and I've only cried twice during therapy. Go me. Most importantly, I now have a regime. I have my therapy, my strict timetable and my prns. I now know my triggers so I can try to avoid them and I'm better able to handle some of my mood swings. The only downside is that after a year I still don't have a set diagnosis. Cyclothymia, BPD or co-morbidity. I don't want to end the year without knowing for sure.
Does anybody remember the beginning of their journey? First tdoc/pdoc appt? What pushed you to go? How far have you come? Are you satisfied with the progress you've made?