you love me?? not!!!!
ugh i need to hurry up and get the fuck out of here, i hate this place with passion,fuck it all, i hate it, they all think that they can treat me this way FUCK THEM, dude, idgaf about it anymore, i wanna cut up my arms right now, FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCKFUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!!!
im so tired of all this, i wanna so bad be done with this life, but i cant i cant do that to certain ppl in my life, FUCK! ugh i hate myself right now, why arent i good enough, why because im being myself i get treated like shit, i wish that i can be like my sister and be attracted to boys, she's getting married to a guy she has baby with him, she went to college she has a good career and my bro he gunna get married to his gf they have gavyn, he works she works, they both have there lil families, and eveyone is happy for them, but me, nope its totally different, im abnormal cause i like girls, when im with someone i dont get a "im happy for u" i get a " how can u do this to me" or "ewww" or " thats not right and u know it":\ well fuck it u dont want me to be happpy fine i will suffer my whole fucking life because you guys are ashamed of me, my mom introduces me as her daughter with the problems, and she goes the other one is the one that is married, man fuck you mom, ugh my life is so point less, i need mimi right nowshe knows how to make everything better, gah im gunna hide in my room for the rest of the day, i cant get cutting out of my head, ughhhh i hate today!!!! its so lame that ppl are like this to there own family members, like seriously, well sorry for all this i needed to vent!!:{
i miss my mimi:(
gah im such a cry baby:''(
im so tired of all this, i wanna so bad be done with this life, but i cant i cant do that to certain ppl in my life, FUCK! ugh i hate myself right now, why arent i good enough, why because im being myself i get treated like shit, i wish that i can be like my sister and be attracted to boys, she's getting married to a guy she has baby with him, she went to college she has a good career and my bro he gunna get married to his gf they have gavyn, he works she works, they both have there lil families, and eveyone is happy for them, but me, nope its totally different, im abnormal cause i like girls, when im with someone i dont get a "im happy for u" i get a " how can u do this to me" or "ewww" or " thats not right and u know it":\ well fuck it u dont want me to be happpy fine i will suffer my whole fucking life because you guys are ashamed of me, my mom introduces me as her daughter with the problems, and she goes the other one is the one that is married, man fuck you mom, ugh my life is so point less, i need mimi right nowshe knows how to make everything better, gah im gunna hide in my room for the rest of the day, i cant get cutting out of my head, ughhhh i hate today!!!! its so lame that ppl are like this to there own family members, like seriously, well sorry for all this i needed to vent!!:{
i miss my mimi:(
gah im such a cry baby:''(
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Awh I\'m sorry :( I care about you and I hope you don\'t go crazy cutting. You nor no one deserves this, especially since you are a good person. For them not to see through something as overall so insignifigant as sexual orientation is disapointing because you are cool. I\'m here for you if you need someone else to talk to. :)
thanks hun