JESSIKAH

i keep getting night mares, they are really bad. i feel bad cause last night i woke up my cousin for the 2 nd time by screaming:( it wasnt good.i misssss my girlfriend i ahvent seen her in a while...

so,  earlier i told u guys how happy i am. and its true i am happy with my girl friend. i am happy being here. but i also feel so lost and confused. i kinda feel alone especially at the moment.this...

so i live in north dakota now,and let me tell you , its nothing like southern californiaits so cold, and not busy at all.there is land everywhereu seee cows when u look out side of ur car window:)ppl...

i am so happy, things are greathavent felt this way in a whilesmiles on my facedm

i am so happy, things are greathavent felt this way in a whilesmiles on my facedm

i fucking hate life, i am drunk off my ass, and im so tired of ppl being fake, i learned ppls true colors when i went to the hospital, they all left my life, took off, they are happy and i am here...

cant get myself to get upive been crying in this room for already an hour and a half,im shakingmy head hurtsim trying to get myself together for the kids buti cant, so many thoughts are going thru my...

ugh i need to hurry up and get the fuck out of here, i hate this place with passion,fuck it all, i hate it, they all think that they can treat me this way FUCK THEM, dude, idgaf about it anymore, i...

people, always think the worst, like seriously u would try to tell me i used you, hmmm okay, its not my fault  this is happening, remember he was the one  that u  chose, idk what to say,yesss i...

well the past two days have been great, the one girl that i  love with my whole heart, that gets me, always have, she hasnt changed, she claims she did, but she still is that girl that try's to not...

ive been doing a bit betterthanks to a friend:]i still miss mimi more than ever butshe chose this for herself she chose to leaveidkmy mom got into my bank account and took money ugh she disgusts mei...

so im in a lot right nowelisha freaking hates mewe messed around and i regret it so much i miss mimiidk why i miss her so much  she is my lovei aam so retarded somtimes but it is what it isi went to...

latley things have been shit.girls just fuck with my mindughhhh.life suck right nowi miss brishe needs to call a china girl back once in a whilesoccer should be starting again.fun:]i scraped my leg...

well im doing better kindaim at my sister atmbeen spending lots of time with my niece i love her so muchmy depression has gotten way worse since becca leftbut im not letting it take me overi might...

yesterday was a bad day for me but im better nowmy teeth hurt bad my face is all messed up  i have a fat lipfrom beating myself up:[ o well i deserved iton the bright side i  am talking to areally...