Things have gotten so bad lately and I feel so alone in it. I'm getting evicted from my apartment. I have to talk myself everyday out of being stupid. I'm learning a lot about myself since Danielle left. She deserves the best but I want her so badly it kills me and I get so jealous of everyone who's close with her because I lost my right to even know how her day went. I feel suicidal today but I'm staying strong.