life

since Danielle and i have been separated. life has sucked! I'm getting stronger though. I have been hospatilized three times since she left. I am seeing her true colors now. she can be awfully mean sometimes. I know i drive her there but what she says to me hurts. I miss the girl. but i got to move on!! she's made it clear that we will never be together again. when i see her she seems happy anyways. mutual friends say she is still struggling too. That makes me sad cause i dont want her to go back to her old ways.she has came way to far! anyways enough about her
I'm sick:( ive been puking blood and it coming from my behind and now i have this fat lip that just appeared and not to mention pain in my belly:( it scares me.
I decided that I might be moving soon but i have to get on it cause i want to go back to school in spring. I want to be around family. No matter how bad it gets between my family and i. They always seem to be there when i really need them. Its weird how nice and caring my sister has been to me since danielle broke up with me. probally because she knows what im going through. I dont know what i would have done with out my friend heather she has been so suppportive to me and its hard for her cause she knew danielle first but she still is there for me and i love her so much! well thats it for now!
- Jess