death

so today I got the news that a friend that I went to treatment with killed herself. and I honestly don't know how to feel. I feel sad that she's not here but I know she's happy that she doesn't have to be here anymore. she happens to be a lesbian also and I have her on Facebook so on her page her girlfriend is writing all this stuff about how broken she is and I feel terrible for her and a little guilty because almost 3 years ago when I was in and out of treatment I was in a long term relationship and I wanted nothing more than to kill myself and if I did   Danielle my ex would've been so crushed. thank god she got out before I did anything so if I were to die soon it wouldn't matter as much. but god I keep reading dawn's girlfriends statuses and I feel so bad for her it breaks my heart. I knew dawn we were roommates at the same treatment center and the thing I remember about her the most is how funny she was. she was hilarious and a bit crazy, but in a good way. I'm happy she is out of pain, I'm sorry that it had to hurt so many others though
Rest easy dawn, you'll always be remembered!