JESSIKAH

lets see i am now engaged and its the real deal. i love my fiance to pieces. we have come a long way. i moved here from san diego to be with her. it was the best decision of my life. i have learned...

not sure what im doing but i am feeling very suicidal . i just need to talk  to someoe, anyone. im tired and sad .

i havent wrote  a journal in a very long time. there has been so much going on in my life. i havent been the best im kinda slipping again and i dont think i have ever hated myself as much as i do...

im feel pretty fucking pathetic right now.i always think about the worst at  night time when no one is home.my mom hates me right now cause im such a selfish little bitch and i just lefti feel like...

well update on my life.i currently live with my gf.i love itwe got a pet ferretshes a brat, her name is mira!but i love her stinky butt.i miss my family more than i ever thought i woould.it sucksmy...

latley things are so shakey.i wanna get out of here ( my cousins house)i cant wait to move in with my baby!!!:)this last weekend was so perfect i spentit all with herfrom friday night to monday...

i keep getting night mares, they are really bad. i feel bad cause last night i woke up my cousin for the 2 nd time by screaming:( it wasnt good.i misssss my girlfriend i ahvent seen her in a while...

so,  earlier i told u guys how happy i am. and its true i am happy with my girl friend. i am happy being here. but i also feel so lost and confused. i kinda feel alone especially at the moment.this...

so i live in north dakota now,and let me tell you , its nothing like southern californiaits so cold, and not busy at all.there is land everywhereu seee cows when u look out side of ur car window:)ppl...

i am so happy, things are greathavent felt this way in a whilesmiles on my facedm

i am so happy, things are greathavent felt this way in a whilesmiles on my facedm

i fucking hate life, i am drunk off my ass, and im so tired of ppl being fake, i learned ppls true colors when i went to the hospital, they all left my life, took off, they are happy and i am here...

cant get myself to get upive been crying in this room for already an hour and a half,im shakingmy head hurtsim trying to get myself together for the kids buti cant, so many thoughts are going thru my...

ugh i need to hurry up and get the fuck out of here, i hate this place with passion,fuck it all, i hate it, they all think that they can treat me this way FUCK THEM, dude, idgaf about it anymore, i...

people, always think the worst, like seriously u would try to tell me i used you, hmmm okay, its not my fault  this is happening, remember he was the one  that u  chose, idk what to say,yesss i...