life

well my life  being back in cali has been interesting. Its great seeing my family and my old friends. i realised how much i have really changed. i have a different perspective on life now. before i moved i was misunderstood but now i really am misunderstoood by my family. im so different. some days i just want to do some stuff to just fit in, and maybe to forget about how i changed, how im different and who helped me change. I want to forget memories because they kill me at night. Those memories made me who i am today. I have been struggling with the question "what is my worth" because somedays i feel absolutely worthless but some days i see that i am worth a lot. I might only have one friend right now and i havent even met her in person but maybe thats all i need right now. I signed up for school a few weeks ago and i have been keeping myself busy helping at my grandpas stores and helping with my niece and nephew. but i still feel like a piece of me is missing. it kills me inside. everyone thinks im doing great but im dying inside.