JESSIKAH

wow so things are changing fasti was happy at first to be back but now i just want to be far far awayi am now officially going out with christina which makes me super happyshe is so cool and she...

so todays one of my big tournaments and im super nervous i've been in lots of small tournaments but this one is huge . i am so nervous i couldnt sleep yesterday:\then tomorrow i leave to japan for a...

today was a crappy dayschool was stupid.kickboxing was alright i performed awesomei was suppose to go out tonite but couldnt cause of my grandparentsughhhmakes me angrybri is not being nice rite...

today was an alright dayi scared christina yesterday:( i feel really badshe really makes me smile i might go to her last lax game :)somtimes i just want my mommyi just want her to love mei want her...

i feel better than i did yesterday.aalthough i have been thinking alotim not sure what i would do if  anything ever happend to my family although they are cruel to me i love them so much.i have been...

well this weekend so far was pretty much retarded ughhhi decided i do not trust anybody at all anymore becaused at anytime they can just quit on me like nothing and i will be down for a long time...

was one of those retearded daysthe morning was horrible i wanted to  hurt myself so badi wanted to die:((but i kept  reminding myself that i love my friends and famthat they would be sad if i...

ughh people make me mad:\today was an horrible dayi missed some onemy mom made a big schenejulie hit me AGAINi have no one to talk to about itahhhhhhhim going to bed good nitejessica

wow tonight was AMAZING.i went out to dinner with a girl she is awesome.then we went to the rain concert which was more than amazingi had so muchh funnneven tho i was totallly nervous haha im such a...

lateley ive been feeeling good i had an amazing weekend:)minus not talking to bri:(we went to the beach on saturday and got faded:)then on sunday we went swimming in a pool:))i had funnnnn;DSchool...

i got school tomorrow:(ima quit using methim trying to keep myself happy and stuff but it takes timei came up with a whole list of positive things in my life and it really has helped me:)i  want to...

im so fucking tired of everybody fucking me over.why?what the hell did i do to them?fuck this lifei hate this i hate my fuckking life

lately ive been gettin mad for no damn reason:(amanda wants me back.idk what i want.i love her.i do.but we fight alot.tooo much.i dont know.i love her baby so much.ughh i hate decisions my mom is a...