please let the grieving grieve by vader

to all please do us in this emotional pain after a suicide..please let the grieving grieve.it is not necessary to call me every day,to ask how I am doing.It is not necessary to bring some of the most disgusting foods over.I hate vegetables and i hate broccoli.It is not necessary to try to comfort me when I cry...but when i cry...JUST LET ME DO IT.......OKAY! iT i SOUND LIKE A BITCH IT IS BECAUSE i AM GETTING FED UP WITH WELL MEANING PEOPLE.Look....well meaning people who have no problems are making it worse.Not one of them have money problems and one of them is living in a dream world like Michael Jackson.Please do not say to me "Tomorrow will better." If you were not there...then how the hell do you know? What gives all of the you the right to suddenly be my friend? I have a question..if it were me instead of Brad...would you be so concerned? I doubt it.Brad and I were having problems and i reached out for help.I called you and you told me you were busy...well I am busy too...drop dead.Dont tell me that you havent got the time to write.You are full of it.You cant afford 41.cents for a stamp? Come off it...you are a liar.Have the decency to admit that you are ashamed because I am bi polar and you dont understand it and you will never take the necessary steps to understand.Drop dead.Brad would still be alive if you helped me getting him in rehab.No you had to go to that fashion show and i want everyone of you to know you stink and i hate your guts.drop dead and leave me alone for I intend to cry about Brad and you have got no say in the matter.You dont have the decencyn to reply because you are a psychic vampire and are the ones that Kurt Cobain wrote and spoke about.Thanks Kurt................................