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Today has been a fairly rough day.  Work was very trying.  The temptation seems to never stop rolling in lately.  I will have to say that even though the temptations come,  I have to be grateful...

Well here we go.  I was told years ago that journaling was a great way to cope with things and to work through some problems.  I found this site today and I am hoping it will help me work through...

Here we are again.  Woke up today feeling very down.  I have a call in to my counselor because I need to let her know what is going on with me.  I am hoping that I can get in to see her sometime...

Ok so I went to work yesterday evening.  I got myself out of the house and went in.  I had not even fully gotten into the building when I felt like I was going to have a panic attack or breakdown...

I have been taking the new meds for a couple of days now.  I know I shouldn't be feeling any better from the prozac yet but it seems that the atarax hasn't slowed my mind down much.  It has chilled...

It is almost 4AM and here I sit.  Alone with my thoughts.  I have met the most amazing awesome lady that I have ever known in my life.  I just got off the phone with her and she is such a...

I do not understand what in the hell is going on with me.  I cannot sleep.  I am aggitated.  I am cranky.  I feel numb yet I feel like I could claw my whole body because it feels like every nerve...

Amazing how quickly things can change.  Right now I am feeling very close to going over the edge.  I just can't take much more on my plate.  I am dealing with things that I can't fix right now. ...

Today has been just so so.  It has had it's ups and it has had it's definite downs.  Remembering what a very good friend/sponsor told me....If it isn't worth killing over, it isn't worth being...

This was a strange day (4-19-08).  In fact this whole time of coming off a binge was different from any that I have had in the past.  I have had a very strange sense of calm about things.  I...

Yeah I blew it.  I got drunk yesterday and no it didn't help.  Just made things more stressful.  I even didn't have the good sense to say no to the guys when they wanted me to go out after work...

As the days go by I feel myself sinking further and further.  I have fought and fought.  Honestly, I am sick and tired of fighting.  I don't have any fight left in me today.  I want to start...

It is a bad day today.  I had to deal with the insurance people and the car that my daughter was in the accident in.  It brought things back very vividly and now I am freaking out.  I just want...

Today has been a fairly rough day.  Work was very trying.  The temptation seems to never stop rolling in lately.  I will have to say that even though the temptations come,  I have to be grateful...

Well here we go.  I was told years ago that journaling was a great way to cope with things and to work through some problems.  I found this site today and I am hoping it will help me work through...