Update
Today has been just so so. It has had it's ups and it has had it's definite downs. Remembering what a very good friend/sponsor told me....If it isn't worth killing over, it isn't worth being angry about. Seems I am having more and more chances to put that one to the test. Thusfar...It has worked every single time. I am amazed at how one's day can be a rollercoaster of emotions. Feeling fine one minute, being angry the next, crying the next, feeling ok the next. Makes me damned tired! I have not wanted a drink today and nothing is worth picking back up that bottle to make my life worse. Seems my 'friend' is wanting to torcher me a bit. She and I parted ways yesterday and now she seems to show up everytime I come online. I have held my temper and tried to ignore her. I guess she will just have to get it out of her system and she will finally give up whatever the game is that she is trying to play. I feel if I don't give in and play her game (whatever it is) that she will get tired of trying and go away. At least that is what I am hoping for. Guess we will just have to see what happens there. I refuse to dwell on what happened yesterday and I am not going to fret about today. Tomorrow I will deal with whatever comes along one second, minute, or hour at a time.
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