Feels like I am pushing
Ok so I went to work yesterday evening. I got myself out of the house and went in. I had not even fully gotten into the building when I felt like I was going to have a panic attack or breakdown or something. I am pushing myself only because I am needing the money. It is like pure torcher. My mother said it will do you good to get back to work but she doesn't understand where I am at in my head. I stayed for the whole shift and came home. I had to go back in for a while during the night to deal with an issue with an employee. I don't believe I should even be behind the wheel right now much less dealing with employees. I am extremely tired today from just the effort of pushing through yesterday. I feel extremely aggitated or on edge today. I don't know what to do because I feel like I HAVE to go to work to support myself and my kid but I feel like it is also 'killing' me to do it. That is tearing me apart. If things get worse tonight I think I will just take myself to the hospital. I guess I am just ranting here. Not sure what to do from now.
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