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It has been the weirdest day.  Started out the day a little on the depressed side then all of a sudden....WHAMMO.....the manic thing hit and I was all over the place.  I got so irritable and...

Hey all. Just a quick goal update.  Today is 52 days sober.  The bipolar is still tripping with me because seems like even though I am on my meds I am still having some manic stuff happening and...

Today is day 47 sober.  I had a talk with my sponsor last night and we discussed how odd and scarey if feels since my meds are working and I have peace.  It is like I am waiting for something bad...

Yesterday was a fairly good day considering all that has been going on in my life.  I think my new meds are beginning to work some.   Maybe they finally have me on the right meds for a change.  I...

Well it was a great day until I got a phone call and was informed that I no longer have a job.  Now I don't know what I am going to do.  I am feeling like I could explode.  I have had my meds but...

Just a quick update.   41 days sober. 

Well I am home.  I thought it would be easiest to just post a journal entry and let folks know that.  I had an episode Monday night while at work and decided that it was time to go to the hospital...

Well I am still hanging in with not picking back up the bottle.  I have to be honest and admit that tonight has been hard.  I have been wanting a drink really bad tonight.  I have hit a bottom or...

Wow!  Last night was a complete trip for me. I say last night but I guess now it was really night before last.  Never went to sleep tonight.  I have become very manic tonight and cannot slow...

i tried to shut my eyes  i had them shut and i heard a noise  i know it is that thing coming back  i shouldnt have told nobody  now i pissed it off  it was probably over there listening the...

what the hell is going on  i need some help  there is a thing in the corner that is like looking at me but it dont have any eyes  it seems like i got a whole damned bunch of people screaming in my...

Well, I made it!   I made it a whole month without picking up a drink. With all that has been happening in my life this is truly a miracle!  I have to thank my HP first of all for helping me and...

Well.......I am at 29 days (4 weeks).  Looks like I have made it though this first month.  It has been a tough one and there have been a few close calls but I have managed to stick it out with the...

Well here we are 26 days into this time around sober.  It has been a tough 26 days but I am still standing.  I think it would be much easier if I didn't constantly having people waving booze under...

Things are looking better today.  I got some sleep finally.  I feel more leveled out today.  So far there have been no extreme ups or downs.  I have no desire to drink today.  I also am not...