Not a good day

It is a bad day today.  I had to deal with the insurance people and the car that my daughter was in the accident in.  It brought things back very vividly and now I am freaking out.  I just want all this to be over and I want to numb out for a while.  I only got about an hour sleep last night and I woke up to a nightmare about the accident.  I really want a drink to check out for a while.  I now have to go into work and try to turn all this off for over 8 hours and I am not sure I can handle it.  I am praying and trying to use the tools that I have gained and learned over my years of sobriety but it seems like everytime I have a 'flashback' of what happened those tools seem to dim and not be working.  Not sure how this day is going to end.