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Well, I made it!   I made it a whole month without picking up a drink. With all that has been happening in my life this is truly a miracle!  I have to thank my HP first of all for helping me and...

Well.......I am at 29 days (4 weeks).  Looks like I have made it though this first month.  It has been a tough one and there have been a few close calls but I have managed to stick it out with the...

Well here we are 26 days into this time around sober.  It has been a tough 26 days but I am still standing.  I think it would be much easier if I didn't constantly having people waving booze under...

Things are looking better today.  I got some sleep finally.  I feel more leveled out today.  So far there have been no extreme ups or downs.  I have no desire to drink today.  I also am not...

I am fed up!  I have been trying and trying to do what is right and where has it got me?  Absolutely no friggin where!  Seems like everything I touch turns to crap and like I can do nothing...

Yep.  I am still here.  I made it for 3 weeks now sober.  Actually I don't remember a lot about the last three weeks except that they were not a great deal of fun.  I am doing my best to just try...

Well here I am.  20 days into this sober thing again and I have not had a drink.  I came home from work early tonight.  The guys I was working with tonight were two that I was not with when I had...

OK....Yeah this day sucks!....NO....this whole week sucks!  I am so fed up and feel so defeated.  The counselor hates the nurse practitioner, the nurse practitioner hates the counselor, the NP...

Here we are again.  Woke up today feeling very down.  I have a call in to my counselor because I need to let her know what is going on with me.  I am hoping that I can get in to see her sometime...

Ok so I went to work yesterday evening.  I got myself out of the house and went in.  I had not even fully gotten into the building when I felt like I was going to have a panic attack or breakdown...

I have been taking the new meds for a couple of days now.  I know I shouldn't be feeling any better from the prozac yet but it seems that the atarax hasn't slowed my mind down much.  It has chilled...

It is almost 4AM and here I sit.  Alone with my thoughts.  I have met the most amazing awesome lady that I have ever known in my life.  I just got off the phone with her and she is such a...

I do not understand what in the hell is going on with me.  I cannot sleep.  I am aggitated.  I am cranky.  I feel numb yet I feel like I could claw my whole body because it feels like every nerve...

Amazing how quickly things can change.  Right now I am feeling very close to going over the edge.  I just can't take much more on my plate.  I am dealing with things that I can't fix right now. ...

Today has been just so so.  It has had it's ups and it has had it's definite downs.  Remembering what a very good friend/sponsor told me....If it isn't worth killing over, it isn't worth being...